Stepfather Jakob has taught me that in spite of the outward church teachings, men in the brotherhood of priests must support each other, even when that means giving each other comfort in their sexual desires. My first time with Stepfather Jakob was an amazing experience, almost spiritual. I never imagined that my sexual desires would be accepted by the church. I wanted to become a priest to run away from my desires for other men; or at least, to learn to resist them by devoting myself to the Church but now I find that they are at the center of my spiritual devotion.